I wish I could Explain Myself

loong time..

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 18:40:12 GMT

wow its been foreverr since i wrote again. summer started a week ago. i can't believe how fast graduation came!

yesterday i slept all day due to pain of my new monroe. then i went to kaydees for a little with everyone to watch laguna beach.
tuesday i boought some new cds and slept at mike's.
monday i got my monroe done while bre got her belly button. then we went to howell and hungout with mike. lauren and bre slept over. we didnt get home till likee 3.
sunday me and kaydee went to waffle house. that was extremely interesting..
we stayed up till like 9.
saturday i went to howell. me and mike went to fridays. then me and chris drove around weird roads till 4 in the morning. i slept at mikes.
friday was kaydees BBQ. me lauren and bre slept over. once again i didnt get any sleep.
thursday was graduation. people came over after. then i slept at mikes.
i dont remember what i did wednesay.
tuesday me and lauren decided to drive around with mikey until 5 in the morning. mind you, we had to go into school at 7. i had graduation practice and she had a french final hahaa.
sunday night me and kaydee hung out with chris and mikey in AC. we got to bed at like 8.
saturday was the babys baptism. afterwards, me mikey and kaydee went to sea side and hungout.
friday i didnt go to school. thursday night i stayed in AC with mmikey in a mad nice suite. it was womderful, until i got reallly sick.
so there's a quick recap of my summer so far. Basically, i sleep all day and stay up all night.
tommorow is marilyns grad party. tommrowo night is bamboo. saturday is whaling.

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 00:39:05 GMT

This long weekend was amaazingg!
Thursday I went to Sandy Hook with Laur and Kaydee. It was really windy. And alot of fun. Then they slept over.
Friday I was really sick so I went to the doctor and just slept all day.
Saturday was Valentines Day I went to Mike's and we just layed in bed watched movies made brownies and drank wine. It was nicee<3
Sunday I climbed the Barnegat Lighthouse with Kaydee! It was so scary. Then I visited Mike cause he was sick and then I slept at Kaydees.
The next day we worked out and watched Sex & the City.
Today I just slept and worked out again with Kaydee and Bre.
I need to lose a good 20 pounds for prom!!

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 01:08:43 GMT

So I'm flying to Florida the 24th for the Nova Interview for the BS DO Program. I'm so stoked.

Break

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 00:09:21 GMT

I can't believe its over! Recap:
Christmas Eve at Mikes and with family.
Christmas I stayed home slept and read Twilight and watched King of Queens.
The next day went shopping for hours with Lauren and Meg. Lauren slept over.
Next day I think me and Lauren hung with Mikey and went to Philly and AC. Was ridiculously fun.
Next day stayed in AC again with Mikey and Chris. Was extremely fun. Went to a 24/7 pub.
Next day me and Mikey stayed in AC again haha. Walked all over and froze and had asthma attacks haha.
Next day was New Years Eve. My whole family and Kaydee was here It was really fun. We danced around like idiots all night and then me and Mikey drove for hours and went to the Dinner at like 3.
Then the next day I hungout with Joanna Lauren Kayde and Melissa. We played pool it was so fun. THen I met up with Mike and we talked till 7 in the morning and got pancakes at the dinner.
Friday I went to Club Abyss with Mikey and danced my ass off it was fun as hell. Then Mike came and I went home with him.
Yesterday I drove up to Howell again and hung with Mikey and Chris and went to Applebees and watched It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia all night. Then went home with Mike again.
At some point I also got my hair chopped off. I actually like it.
SO basically, I have been going to bed at 7 or 8 in the morning every night and barely sleeping. I'm so dead! It was an amazing break. Today said goodbye to Mikey it was so sad. I am so not ready for school!

Christmas!

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 18:33:02 GMT

Christmas Eve Mike picked me up then we went to his house and talked. It ended up very well<3. Then we went to my grandmas with everyone. It was okay. I got pretty sick though cause of what I took like an idiot. So I got:
Sephora makeup
$225
chocolate factory
blakc scarf
purple sweater
Starbucks stuff
some jewelry
black UGGS
some clothes
Curious perfume
Dark Knight
All the Twilight books
slippers

it was a good Christmas. I jsut wish I felt it more this year.

Siick

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 15:43:07 GMT

I am so sick of being sick! I've had stomach issues for 4 months now and the doctor still doesnt help! Stayed home from school again today. I missed like 15 days of school cause of this. Today I'm going Christmas shopping with my mom since I'm home! I'm picking out stuff I want, since she always buys the wrong stuff.I slept like 14 hours last night. I just wanna be healthy!! Only 2 days of school next week. I'm stoked! I'm so busy this weekend. Today I have to clean my room totally its gnarly. Then I wanted to see PNC lights. Wanted to hangout with Mike after 11 cause he works. Tomorow morning Jaynie is coming over for German. I still gotta write the script for that tonight too. Then tomorow night is Kaydee's party. Then Lauren's is Sunday. Gahh I have like no time for anything! Still need to get some Christmas presents too. It's coming up wayy to soon! So Wednesday me lauren my mom and grandma went Bingo haha. It's so aggrevating! I shouldve won soo many times! My mom won 100 though which is cool. It's gross and cold out ughh. I miss Summer!

Almost A Year..

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 00:57:28 GMT

So, I haven't written in here in almost a year. That's insane! I had a random inspiration to pull this up again out of nowhere. I miss using this. It's a way to remember things, since I have the worst memory EVER! So, I guess I will start with my 18th birthday?

It was on Thanksgiving this year, which was pretty weird. My grandparents came over for dinner. Then Kaydee Lauren Bree Christian and Mike came over for cake and all. It didn't really feel like my birthday at all. We just hungout in my room then everyone left and me and Mike hungout at the beach.

The next day was my "party." It was okay. It was me, Mike, Kaydee, Lauren, Bre, Christian, Ramos, Joanna, Marilyn, Mikey, and Chris. I think that was it?? We just listned to music ate and bullshitted.

Mike took me whale watching the next day. Most amazing romantic thing ever! I was ecstatic, even though I pretty much knew, even though it was supposed to be a surprise =[. Words can't describe how happy he makes me, even though it gets kinda difficult at times. I can't believe we've been together since April. That's insane ! It feels like it's new, but yet I feel like I've known him forever.

This year has been very blah and unrealistic. I'm so sure my mom's pregnant. I have no idea of how to act about it. I feel like everything in my life is changing, yet everything's in a stalemate. I'm kinda
numb to alot of things and I can't really help it. But, I am sick of being depressed. I have no reason to be depressed at all, and I'm definelty working on improving myself. I cannot believe 10 days till Christmas! I still need to get Lauren, Mike, and Mikey presents. It really doesn't feel like Christmas, I'm pretty upset. But I guess alot of things are numb to me this year.

My stomach ailment has been bothering me alot. basically I'm only allowed to eat carbs, which means I'm gonna get fat. But I'm getting a gym membership to help.

It feels so nice to get my thoughts out! Even if I am the only person reading this. I don't have a clue of what to do about college. So for now, I'm just gonna pretend like my life isn't gonna drastically change in 6 months.

I need to work on relationships with friends. I hungout with Kaydee and Meg today for the first ime on forever. It felt soo nice. Lately I've been to myself, which make sme more depressed. Definetly going to break this cycle.

I screwed my hair royally. It was beautiful, long, and blonde, and then I dyed it brown. I tried going bacl blonde, but it looks weird. And I had to cut it all off cause it was so fried. Lovely.

These are all such random thoughts. Oh well.

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 00:35:26 GMT

last day of breakk =[
its all a bblur
last night slept at kaydess with bremeglaur
it was okay...depresseing that 2007 is ova=[
today we all went to taco bell wit amanda
then we all just chilled at mayo for a little
sunday night i didnt do anything
saturday i played guitar hero at laurens then me her and kaydee went bowling with mikeyyyy
the night before that me lauren and kaydde drove around with mikey all night and came back to my house and laughed for hours
the niht before that megan and bre and laur slept over.
the night before that i cant really remember haha
i hungout with mikey like 7 times it was good<3
the day after christmas we went to AC<33333
amazinggggg.

good break over all i think. i dont wanna go back to school =[ =[ =[

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 23:36:48 GMT

i never updateeee..
christmas was amazinggg
i was drunk for the past three daysss
i gottt:
A CARR<333 lumina
harry potter movie
pirates movie
wawa gift cards
50 dollars
4 shirts
jeans
2 pairs of shoes
fantasy perfume
sublime shirt
zebra blanket
ipod home clock thingy
headbandss

goood christmass

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 17:25:01 GMT

this weeekend was okay
wednseay megan and lauren slept over
thursday was my LAST DAY OF WORK !!!!!!
friday went to the mall
saturday went ice skating with kayddee =]
today im finishig up homework and practicing drivingg

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 00:06:38 GMT

wowww i never write in here anymre
so last weekend was gooddd
megan and lauren slept over friday
saturday was homecoming
got ready with kd and we took pics at bres uncles
then bre meg laur kd came over
sunday we went to the dinner
then me meg nd laur decorated my basement
yestrday i went to the mall wit my mom and then megan
bought jeans and a shirt
tomoorow is last day of school thank god

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 15:26:30 GMT

wow havent updated this thing in a while
thursday after school me & joanna went to PIZZA HUTT
the i slept
i got my surgery friday
it hurts like hell
chris slept over the past 2 days cause you know everyone else is too busy to hangout with me lately.

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 01:31:36 GMT

thursday night i hungout with lauren and meggg\
last nigt i slept at laurens with kaydee
today i worked and now im just chilling aroundd

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 21:45:59 GMT

went tothe ortho at 9
went to school at 10 30
bre drove me home and i hungout with her and melissa for an hourrr
then i went to aj's<3
good day =D

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 19:01:02 GMT

yesterday i went shopping with bree
i got a tanktop a sweater and a necklace
then AJ came overr=D<3
we hungout till like 8. then i did homeworkk

so apparently me & joanna are cast as groundlings. WHATEVER.

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 23:42:26 GMT

last night i went to ajs
we went to the movies nd saw mr woodcock it was good
then he came oover till 1 in the morning =D<3
today i had work and then i did some homework
my moms friends acme over for dinner
im sleeping at katies tonight for the first time in like foreverrr

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 01:51:14 GMT

Aj asked me out 2 days ago=D
school has been hectic
iwas sick todya nad stayed home

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 00:56:42 GMT

today i did nothing but study =[
ughh..

Sun, 16 Sep 2007 16:39:44 GMT

yesterday i went to howell to see mikey and we studied haha
then i had work =[
then i went to howell again to applebees with mikey shatzi and my mom
then i did hoomework till 4 in the morning

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 20:04:15 GMT

last night i hungout with AJ<3 and brian
it was fun =D

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 23:40:04 GMT

yesterday i went to Aj's for like, 15 minutes
then i went to brick and then Freehold mall to get my ipod fixed
today school was okay
double labs suck tho
went to AJs today
had alot of fun =]
just got homee..

Wed, 12 Sep 2007 01:01:03 GMT

yesteryay school wsa okay
i came home and cahsed my check
i boughtt :
bookbag thing from hollister
black flats
4 shirts

then today i went to AJ's after school it was really fun =]
then i went to back 2 school night and hung with melissa bre megan and lauren
then bree drove me home
it kindof sucked

Sun, 09 Sep 2007 04:11:24 GMT

went to the gamee.
bree drove me and we got subs.
then we met up with joe and people
then i hung with melissa kd lauren megan etc
i sawww MATT SPANARKLE aj stevee joanaa and soo many other people!
then me bree and kd went to joes and went swimming

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 18:26:11 GMT

school was okay yesterday
i had to do freshman orientation and spit water on the stage hahaha
and then we had a pep rally it was so fucken hott
then me and kd and lauren went to the mall
thenn me lauren my mom kristin shatzi chris and his friend went to applbess
then i came home and passed out

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 23:39:53 GMT

schedule :

Pre Calculus- Besante- Tara Deepthi Erin Emily
AP English - Viggiano- Alicia
AP Biology- Mastrionani0 Deepthi Erin Emma
Lunch
AP History- Schenker- Britt Rae Erin
German 3- Krystek- Kristin Amandaaa Alysha Britt Jess
Gym- Capolla- Rae Tara Marilyn Kristin
Physics- Hartzfeld- JOANNAAa Britt Kristin Rae Emily

school was okay today
i was dissapointed everyone got 5th lunch butr me
BUTT i have tara and rae and STEVE in my lunch
last year was sooo much beter =[
alot of shit happened today i cant take anymore
p.s. i got cute zebra folders!